Newsletter Archive
Below are articles from the first six months of the BodyInsights newsletter. For clarity’s sake, only the articles from those mailings are included on this page, any accompanying announcements they had have been left to the sands of time.
For the most recent archive, from December 2009 to Present, click here.
Love in the World
November 4th, 2009
Defining What I Do
October 7th, 2009
God is in the Details
August 12th, 2009
Money!
July 8th, 2009
Psychic Images
June 24th, 2009
Wait…I’m Psychic Now
June 4th, 2009
November 4th, 2009
Love in the World
A favorite charity of mine recently sent me a calendar. It’s filled with friendly images of people in various third world countries, accompanied with a short paragraph explaining something about how the charity has helped them and their country’s situation.
The pictures are happy. The words are hopeful. I wondered how the people in the pictures were actually doing, and naively opened to see if my psychic intuition could tell me anything more. I put my hand on one picture of boys in school smiling at the camera, and felt a vortex open before me. It was a sensation of deep hunger, though that is not an encompassing enough word. This was something arising from the very core. It was on a level I had never experienced before and I fell to the ground under its weight.
Having opened to this awareness I felt trapped by it. It wasn’t the people in the picture; it was the state of suffering in the world I fell open to. For my own preservation I started invoking the energy of love; love for the people, love for the planet, and love for myself. Love to counteract the sensation of aching devastation.
In doing this I began to understand the energy I was present to. It was actually familiar, and not scary. I could identify it as a simple wanting to be loved, to feel safe, and to feel connection with others. I have felt this same pain present in myself, and have witnessed it in others without exception.
The only difference was the magnitude on which I encountered it. Many countries were represented, with long histories of war and starvation. However I found no limit inside myself to meeting this need, and allowed my sense of love to expand through my awareness of it.
It didn’t take long. In five or ten minutes I was able to stand again, and put the calendar to the side for future meditations. Oddly, after this experience, I felt better.
I was lighter inside, as though something had cleared. A deep ache inside of me was answered by calling love forward for others. I know this is not a new idea, and perhaps I am only echoing thousands of years of teachings to say that in giving love you also receive it. Still, it feels right to share the personal experience of this.
Energy is universal, it embodies all levels, and the patterns in microscopic cells repeat out into the macrocosmic universe.
If we take on the world’s fear as our own (feeling guilt or judgments about global situations), we increase the fear in the world. If we simply open in love and stand present with whatever is, we turn nothing away and no person (or country) is left behind.
Recognize this inside yourself and you will recognize it within the world. Physics.
Quote:
Fire above the mark you intend to hit. Energy, invincible
determination with the right motive, are the levers that move the world. Noah Porter
October 7th, 2009
Defining What I Do
Over the past year I have consulted a long list of business and life coaches, in an effort to understand and handle the running of my business. These consultants are usually heart-centered, psychic friendly and energy minded people, although I have taken a number of classes offered through government programs. No matter how energy-minded or cut-and-dry they were, everyone I consulted agreed on one specific point, without deviation: Define who your customer is, define what you do.
Ah. Well. That’s easy enough. I am a psychic intuitive and massage therapist. I combine psychic readings with bodywork to provide understanding of how life issues affect your body.
No, that’s too vague. Who is the client? What benefit does this have? People want results; they care about what you do, not how you do it. Try again.
I start to stumble, trying to answer. I don’t know who the client is. My clients have run the gamut from young children to people in their late 70s; from spiritual skeptics to the devoutly religious; men, women, transgendered and of all income brackets. Mostly white, but I think that’s more to do with my location than a market preference.
The benefit of my work seems clear but I have difficulty putting it into words. It’s healing on many levels, physical and spiritual.
The average business coach sighs patiently, and tries again to help me be a little more definitive.
Where is the heart? Why do people need this? What benefit does it have? Do people feel better after seeing you?
Yes, they feel better after seeing me. I have a long list of testimonies on my website from people describing how I’ve helped them. Some have called me a miracle worker.
Okay, why? What specifically are you giving them?
It’s hard to describe.
Weeks pass as I struggle with this definition, the most fundamental part of any business plan. The desk part of my job feels tiring and I don’t want to deal with it. I miss sending out a Newsletter for September, put off setting up a business display at the bank and stop updating my website as frequently. I feel overwhelmed. I’m still taking business classes but they just add to the list of homework I’m not doing. I resent God and the fabric of reality.
Then, someone rephrases the question. And they aren’t even a business coach.
Who do you like to work with? Is there something your clients have in common that’s internal?
Yes. I become slightly shy, afraid to say what I’ve really been doing since opening to my gifts, afraid of sounding arrogant rather than humble.
My clients are longing to be witnessed. To be known as they are, where they stand in their lives, the struggles they face. To be accepted without judgment. They are looking for the truth, wherever it leads.
They do not care if the truth is hard to hear, or if it forces them to grow or change in order to accept it. They want to know who they are, what key lessons are being provided in their lives, and how best to handle them. They will go to the deepest, starkest depths and hold present without fear.
I provide a witness for their journey, and the words I channel match them at their level and say exactly what they need to hear in the way they most benefit hearing it. It is process work, and it serves to integrate and heal wounds on both physical and mental/emotional levels.
As one client put it, “There isn’t any fluff in what you do. It’s all just real. No fluff.”
For people who want guidance that is real and not based on theory, I provide.
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To find what you seek in the road of life, the best proverb of all is that which says: “Leave no stone unturned.”
Edward Bulwer Lytton
God is in the Details
Within the framework of practical thinking I discover God.
This has not been an easy revelation for me. It requires a level of focus and attention to detail I spent much of my life railing against. When I was growing up my mother used to warn me that “the devil is in the details”, to which I would sensibly reply “so avoid the details!”
Details are scary, messy, involved things that bog you dwn. I figured if I was gonna be alive I would enjoy it. Live in the moment, it’s all you have. If you procrastinate about doing the things you don’t want to do, then you don’t have to do them. Doing hard work is a choice, there are other options. I lived my life by these princples and they served me well for many years.
Then I moved out of my parents’ house.
It was slow at first, how the fundamental nature of existence changed. New revelations found their way into my life that were inconvenient, to say the least. Everything costs money, doing what you want requires hard work, living in the moment is itself a discipline. I started getting scared that eating junk food and watching TV all day was not the secret to happiness it purported to be.
Life required more of me to get by, so I started giving more. Giving more actually made me feel better, which was odd. I didn’t like doing the things I could no longer avoid, but having done them I felt better. That’s when I completed my mother’s saying for myself: the devil is in the details when you don’t look at them, God is in them when you do.
When you don’t pay attention to something you don’t know what it is and fear works its way in. Fear is a heavy, dense energy and it makes the idea of a task a thousand times more difficult than it actually is. Almost five years ago I started my own business with no awareness of the details involved and no desire to do them. I made most of my income working for other people with a general sense of failure about my abilities as a businesswoman.
When I opened to psychic awareness I discovered a new context for life. There was no doubt I would have to start running my own business in earnest, and God was supporting me. Or rather, God instantaneously removed all other sources of income and suggested I survive anyway. Feeling slightly pressured, I sought advice and found plenty available. Many times now I have sat taking notes on how to manage my business. I make lists of things to do, then I do them.
It sounds simple, it is. It sounds easy, it can be. When I pay attention to everything I’m doing and everything that needs to be done, I feel lighter. Things become easier, fun even. This morning started off with me crossing off several things that had been weighing on me to do. I was amazed by how light, easy and present I felt. Lifted I started thinking of more things to do to carry on this feeling, and spent a full day working with barely any sense of effort.
As I focus on the detail of the moment, I feel light, airy, capable. I feel all the things I associate with God, all the rantings of my childhood about what life should be like. The fact that this feeling comes about through paying taxes, running errands, and managing business accounts is not how I would have chosen to design the universe, but whatever.
A more philosophical way to put this: you are God, God is present wherever you look, look at the details.
Money!
The great thing about this topic is that no matter how often or how many ways it’s discussed, money is always interesting. Everyone uses it, thinks about it, wants it, and links their primal sense of survival to its presence.
So it can be kind of a stressful topic. Not a great one for promoting clear thinking, which is why we don’t think clearly about it. We go into survival mode, “must have!”, which is a fear-based feeling. Hence the common philosophy that money is the root of all evil.
IT IS NOT. Fear is.
Having fear around money makes us associate this powerful energy as something negative or harmful to our lives, but we have to have it anyway. See how the logic begins to break down?
One of the first things I came into when I had my psychic awakening was a new understanding of money. It was evident that I would have to sustain my own business if I wanted to make my living doing psychic work, so I channelled the following advice. Magically, it works best when shared with others:
- Money is a river, constantly in flowing motion. It does not stay still. Do not hold on to or resent giving money away, you must let it flow through you in order to receive it. This is how it cycles. If you try to hold on to it, it will still leave you, but there will be no room in your energy for more to come in.
- Once you begin to give it away you can’t get rid of it. If you give away $10,000 a hundred thousand will come in its place.
- Money is a link between heaven and earth. It lives as energy in the air around us, to receive it as it is meant to be given is to make grounded connection with the earth.
- Do not worry about having enough. Concentrate on giving, receiving will take care of itself.
- People who need your service come to you, you do not go to them.
- Believe in your worth.
- Charge what you are worth.
To follow these points requires clear thinking. You cannot give away money and then receive more if you believe spending it hurts or impairs your ability to survive. This is a fine point to understand, here’s how I finally grasped it:
One month, when I had no idea if I would have enough money for rent or not, I paid every bill as it came, instead of saving to make certain I could pay rent first. I also gave to charity and invested in attending a workshop I felt was important. I did not spend any money I didn’t already have, and I set the clear intention that this was to keep the larger cycle in motion. Suddenly, I got busy. Job opportunities opened up and new clients started scheduling with me. I ended up not only being able to afford rent, but knew I was fine for the following month as well.
This was my first elevation out of eking by, and the reason it worked is I didn’t fake it. I truly felt into and experienced money as part of a larger cycle, flowing through me for the benefit of the world. I didn’t hold on to or resent it’s passing, I felt honored to be a vessel for it.
The more I let go of money, the more I have. This is because to let go of it is to take away the fear aspect of “must have!” When you interact with money as something you give away, that automatically requires you to have it first. Money likes to be given, it goes to people who like to give it. That’s all. This is why I consider charities a reliable investment opportunity.
Psychic Images
Every Thursday morning I go out for breakfast with my mother. We are known regulars at a restaurant on Hawthorne Boulevard, and we always sit in the same places at the same table. From my vantage point, I look directly out at the business across the street, and I ponder it.
It, you see, is a respectable square building with large purple neon signs advertising “Psychic Advisor”. Also boasted in purple neon are the words “Love Counselor”, “Palm Reader” and “Tarot Reader”. While I am a firm believer in these things and their benefits, I do not feel drawn to explore this particular establishment.
Something about the purple neon. It feels cynical.
There’s a superficial image of psychic ability as being “out-there” and “weird”, if not a flat-out scam. This building which I look at for about an hour every Thursday morning seems to loudly agree with this image. It’s part of why, as a psychic counselor myself, I feel slightly embarrassed to associate with the word.
There’s another image of psychic ability available. It’s present in a beautiful book called “The Education of Little Tree” by Forrest Carter. It tells the true story of a young Cherokee boy being raised according to his tribal heritage in the 1930s.
There is no mention of the word “psychic” because this ability warrants no distinction. The people have not separated from nature and so understand their natural abilities. They communicate and send images to each other telepathically and through the use of trees and stars. There is no doubt or hesitation about “extraordinary” experiences, because they trust the things they can feel as strongly as the things they see.
Had I read this book before my psychic awakening, certain parts would have been difficult for me to believe. Now, I felt only relief and confirmation that I wasn’t crazy. Almost everything that associates me with the label of “psychic” was present as a way of life in this book. Essentially, psychic ability isn’t “out there”, it’s natural and human. I knew this already, but it was nice to read.
How I channel this ability is individual to me, as it is individual to all humans. Often my readings will describe some sort of amazing, untapped ability a person has and offer guidance around how to use it. At first I thought that for some unknown reason I was just surrounded by extraordinary people. It quickly became clear that all humans are extraordinary, and capable of far more than we let on. We’re just waiting for permission.
My business is about giving permission. Be amazing. Do all the things you’ve been told aren’t humanly possible just to prove that they are. It’s one way to honor the tribes that lived here before us. And it defies purple neon signs.
“Wait…I’m Psychic Now”
“If you talk to God, that’s praying. If God talks to you, that’s schizophrenia.” So goes a joke that comedian Bill Maher likes to tell.
I’ve been a fan of Bill’s since I first discovered his show “Politically Incorrect” fifteen years ago. He’s one of those brash, cut-through-the-bs media figures the world so desperately needs, and I continue to watch his current show, “Real Time with Bill Maher” every week. I like to think in person he’d be impressed by my own intellect, political savvy, and rational mind.
But then I remember. God talks to me. Not in little, abstract ways either. A literal voice speaks up inside my head and tells me things, and I’ve chosen to identify this voice as God. So maybe Bill wouldn’t be so impressed by my rational sensibilities after all.
I can’t really blame him. It makes sense to be a skeptic, and it feels safer to say you don’t believe in something science can’t prove than to risk having faith. However, things always exist before science gets around to explaining them. The formulas of physics were here long before human knowledge of them, otherwise objects in motion would only stay in motion for physicists.
So if a voice speaks up inside my head and tells me details about total strangers and events I myself couldn’t possibly know, and if this voice is always right, and if opening to this voice has had a powerful altering effect on my body, I make a leap of faith and say there is a scientific explanation for all of this.
As is, I know I’m not crazy because the voice inside my head tells me I’m not. So take that, Bill Maher.
Going even further, I observe that my work has many authentic, life-changing benefits, and I choose to share it with others. You can decide how far down the rabbit hole to follow me. To help you make up your mind, take a look at what’s coming up in Wonderland.
